I was thinking about starting video blogs sooo lets see how it goes.

I’ve been taught to give respect, how to show respect, but what about self respect?
Some know that it is important to have. Its maybe easier to recognize what it looks like when one doesn’t posses it. But why don’t they teach you that? Is it assumed? Assumed that in this backwards society that young generations would just…pick it up? Maybe it is just me, but maybe if more time was spent on teaching self respect and what it truly means and its very importance…maybe some of the older generations wouldn’t be looking at us all like we’re all reckless and miss guided youths. I’m not saying this as an excuse for any “improper” behavior, but I am saying teaching self respect should rank higher in this messed up society where power, money, status rank supreme.

stay up.
smile.
God Bless.

read.

I know it. I live with it. YOU can just deal with it.

I am still working out a few kinks, but some of them flaws…will just always be.
Some flaws I am proud to have and a few that I need to relieve.
Perfection is no longer my goal, happiness with myself is what I hope to “achieve.”
And though, I strongly believe and live by my saying that “happiness is just a different perception away,” self perception seems to be the one taking me the longest to change.

this was a painting I did a little bit ago. I did not finish it bc even though it was slightly “abstract” from my normal…I thought it was revealing more about me than I would want anyone to know. Maybe one day I will finish it, maybe one day I can describe it, but right now I’m working with babysteps. Even though I want to vent, there are just somethings I cannot bring myself to admit.

stay up.
smile.
God Bless.

and so baby, you ain’t seen nothing yet.

chuuuuuch.

Its funny when people think that they have had you. Truth is, you’ve never had me, and you definitely have never had my best. There’s two sides to a n*gga , so what side did you get to know, huh? #treated

stay up.
smile.
God Bless.

Just took some time off to figure shit out. My insecurities were getting the best of me. I figured no one can fuck me over, no one can hurt me if no one knew me or if I didn’t let anyone try to get to know me. And because this blog is 100% all me, all highs and lows and everything inbetween… this blog is the most vulnerable I have ever let myself be…I need to man up and at least give it a go. Try being ok with being vulnerable…sometimes. And yea.. yadda yadda yaddaa ….wateva wateva wateva…I’m back. I’m working with baby steps aight?! haha

stay up.
smile.
God Bless.

When I would hear, “People never change/no one changes.” I used to just nod my head and think, “yeaa…i guess, i see where they’re coming from.”

But really, not really.

We also say, “Money changes people,” “Power changes people,” “Love changes people,” “Fame changes people,” and the list goes on. A traumatic event can change someone. Losing someone can change you. Physically, emotionally, mentally… any and all can change in one person…at any given time. Sometimes all it takes are a few words said to us, at a specific time…for something to click/turn on/set in motion a change, big or small.

So yes, I firmly believe people can change. Darwinism. Evolution. Scientific and spiritual…how can you not believe that people can change? TO say that they can’t… seems…sad…and pessimistic.

Turning 25 next week, and I am constantly changing.
The more I learn, the more I experience, the further I explore…the more I change.
I think, if you are open to change, it can all be beautiful.

“Life isn’t about finding yourself, its about creating yourself.”
…or something like that =)

stay up.
smile.
God Bless.

I’m always like, “damn, i fucked up.”

but really…he deserves better. one of the dopest, reallest cats i’ve met. and easy dude to vibe with.

juuuuust a tad bit bored bc im alone and my bro and cousin arent here lol.

it was a good night though =) GNO

ha yea lame whatever.

ok going to watch a movie now. bye.